I wonder if they listened, I wonder if they believed me

2020. Performance for "Mirror" exhibition at Womxn House I recreate the remnants of my own violence, mapping the cracks of my skin with the dragging of my feet and the sifting of my hands. The scars reflected in the pinks and whites of my heels, the irritation of my palms, the unearthing and sculpting of sand. Having physically mapped my stretch marks through a walking meditation across the landscape of Joshua Tree in May 2019, "I used to whisper violent words to my scars, I wonder if they listened, I wonder if they believed me., " is a performance and installation that focuses on the necessity to reclaim the scars that dawn my skin, and to end the perpetual cycle of violence and aggression that I inflict against my body. Through a rumination of the private performance with my stretch marks, I remap my scars, from the imprint of my heels on the landscape to a rendering of stretch marks made out of sand onto a paved floor. The scents of the landscape, tinctured and bottled and the rocks, photographed and transferred into a linen book. This work seeks to relearn the process of treating my body, learning how to be tender and intimate with my scars.