40 LBS

2018 40lbs, 2018 Flat Screen tv, usb, 40lb velvet compression blanket seeking warmth in a space that rejects you rejecting a space that you built to protect you 40 lbs is a weight that has attached to me, made its way under my skin. It burdens my body but also provides it comfort, warmth, safety. I want to stay and burrow myself into the weight I have put on, but I want to escape and run away from it. I want it to be accessible when I need it, but detachable when I don't. Something I can put on when I am in the company of men, but take off in the company of myself. How do I create a body that is safe from others’ violence, and safe from my own?